I’m a 23 year old, still pursuing an undergraduate degree. To some this might be some type of determination and persistence and to other it may be seen as a failure.

Now I’m stuck between both of those, personally when I look at my friends, majority of them are finished with school and it kind of makes me depressed and then when I think about myself still not giving up I get motivated all over again.

Now I try to think about the reasons why I’m still at my current position but I’m still at a loss. They say live in the now but I can’t help but think of my ‘then’.

My ‘what if’s’
My ‘could have been’
My ‘should have’

At the end of the day, I still smile and know that I am not alone and I can do it. one day I will make it.

Never compare yourself to others, you have not walked in their shoes.

My age is just a number right now while my health is up to par, but time is nothing to be wasted instead should be used wisely. Ask all the question you want and answer will come to you! The fear of failing is fear that will hold you back. I think fear is inevitable it’s what you fear that you can possibly overcome.

You’re too lazy to do work so believing makes it easy to get up and do something.

This is not true but I thought it was a bit funny as I am studying at the moment and asking God to help me in my exams! The exams which I will study my butt off to pass!!!

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On the college website and they have this frikkin scholarship which I am totally eligible for but THEY DO NOT HAVE A WORKING LINK!!! 

I screamed silently at the computer screen as if I was battling in dragon ball z!

At least, I am feeling better because now I can laugh at myself!

Nice “Know-Hows”!!!

Now that you’ve spent hours on the computer searching for the right internship, let’s move on the next big step in the internship experience: the interview.

Congratulations! One of your top choices for internships asked for a phone interview! What’s next?

  • Do your research – you should always know the general history of the company in question as well as their current projects and projections.
  • Build a list of potential questions – have an idea of how you might respond to questions concerning your strengths, weaknesses, and experience.
  • Have questions for them – show interest in the company by asking about the company culture and address questions or concerns that you may have stumbled upon during your research.

And if the interview is in person, follow the above steps and take it one step further with your attire. Depending on the field, your dress should be relatively conservative – ladies…

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Miserable with communication

Not sure what I was doing

Being so accustomed to the sciences

It was all new

 

Took a step back

Looked at it from a different POV

Got the basic gist

Ready to turn in that direction

WHEN

 

BAM

 

I got into the Math program!

OMG

What do I do?

I am so excited

I am a bit scared

 

Happy, ecstatic but worried

 

What do I do?

I can’t say I’ve been very successful when compared to HA-uge CEOs and what not but I’ve done a lil this and that … NOT THE POINT

As someone who is not a big fan of fashion, brands or being sexy/hot. All I care about if comfort (I really just hate clothes #nudity?) i normally aim for comfort and somehow my friends like my “fashion style” … I’m the definition of austerity.

BUT POINT IS…

I’m going to start putting some thought into my look and see if increases my success rate in classes etc. because I can definitely can say that during finals week, I like dressing up because:
1) it’s the end of the semester
2) I do feel more confident walking into an exam looking good ( I get really nervous)
3) you never know what can happen at the end of the semester 😉

Then again I think like most things, it’s relative but we’ll see. It’s cold and honestly I don’t care for it but imma see what happens! 😊

Just a short intro so I that my point can be clear…

From prep school days I have always been “tom-boyish” and that has followed me up to this day in college as a junior, although not as strong, it may be a big part of my life and most of the time I am happy for it. Along with the personality and characteristics that can describe me, I also followed the stereotype and I went through a phase where I had girlfriends and then there was my academic life, I was athletic but I was also pretty good with Math and Sciences which I did have a natural love for. So I continued doing math and science… THEN

I went to college and I figured well I love being active and I love the sciences, why not mechanical engineering… Also there was family on my back about how that would be great as a female and all but I didn’t realize how much of an influence they really had on me until I was in my second semester and I was average, I hated being average because all my friends were above average, with their school work, everything else I excelled in. I was involved on campus and what not… ANYWAYZ

I failed 2 engineer classes and I was such a downer, I didn’t feel any love for it so I switched to math only and there I was also struggling just a bit but I got by. I wondered if I was really doing what I really wanted. I was transferring colleges and did not get into the math program. I got into education and communication. WHAT DID I(my family) CHOOSE?

Communication because my family didn’t think the school i got in for education was worth it. 

P.S. I HATE COMMUNICATION!!! I want to go back and work harder! 

Always told myself I would never regret anything in life but I think I might be regretting this choice. 

 

WHAT NOW?

 

I guess I’m a late bloomer because while some people back home started college right after 5th form/11th grade (which is the end of high school) myself and other decided to continue to do lower & upper 6th form /12th & 13th grade which was mostly for those who wanted a pre-college experience especially those who wanted to major in science and math when they got to college(kind a requirement for colleges back home) anyhow…

One reason I guess I am this way is because I didn’t have a money pool to go dive in when it came to school, I don’t know how my tuition was paid but it was and I’m grateful. So knowing that college tuition was triple the amount of hush school I was definitely not in a rush to get there or I planned to so part time and work. That’s been my plan…

Well let’s just say I found some hidden “treasure” and now I’m a junior in college, full-time BUT it came with a lot of baggage and it’s not going away for now until I’m done and got a job probably. Pretty much gained some stability to call myself completely independent.

Well I have to say I still am blooming and not in a advance stage which I’m not sure how to feel about it but it is what it is I guess.